i dont deserve this shit .

sick and tired of all these f shit nonsence , tolarance of mine is alr dead . maybe it means nothing to you , i didnt do anything anything , i dont deserve all these crap that has happen . i hate myself , im becoming someone i dont know .

im tired , really am .

changed .

things arent the same anymore , everything is just so diff . things changes , people change too . and you are no longer the one i knew alr . you dont seem to bother about whats going on , i feel so ... whatever , im not bothered to say either . if no one bothers , neither do i -.-

mj's celebrating bday for this week , the pubs' too small so seperate days for customers to come . dong abit for her last night and i puked due to the alot beer that was in my tummy ): shit _|_ LOLS ! when i left , i knew she was high but she say she not drunk , lols . schedule for next week is out , i gotta work extra hard to clear my debts ):

okok , blog agn soon , very lazy (:

the river flows in you

i just woke up , from a bad dream but i dont remember what __ cant sleep anymore , my story seem to just get worst when te day passes , idontknow either . working at 730 , and im still on the bed doing nothing when im suppose to be home , the fatty at home is killing me too ):