i thought ...

getting to know you was planed by god i guess , and not able to have you was part of his plan to . it doesnt matter weather to have you or not . at least i have the best memories with you . you might just be the best chapter of my life . i thought that i was able to put you aside in my mind , but i couldnt . i thought i was able to live without you , but i couldnt . i thought i was able to have to just as a friend , but i couldnt . i thought thought thought , but i still couldnt couldnt couldnt . why things would turn out like that . will leaving make me feel better ? im tired . i really am . its like a secret , i cant turn to anyone . i only make you feel stressed up with me by your side maybe .